i am aware that there are times when my body becomes so overwhelmed and i break down. and at those points, i force myself to think about all of the things that are going wrong.

today was one of those days.
i want to be in love.

i'm not sure it's possible for me to get my hopes up again. i think that each time just brings me down a bit further.

i'm back at a place i was in years ago. i don't want people to know that i'm sad. for the past couple years, i have become more open about it. but i have realized that it is not the most attractive thing.


i made a baked brie tonight. it was lysee's recipe. it came out great.

there are two finals tomorrow.

on the up and up, i bought my plane ticket to go home for a few days. i can't wait to see my family.