get your shit together.get your shit together. get your shit together.

i need to learn how to get across emotion in my fiction writing. the struggle of being genuine without talking about myself. i need to bring across the feelings of the people whose stories i have heard.

there is so much emotion in the present, and in what's at stake for the future.

this world is intense.
and the utter chaos i have felt in my own life in the past week is counter productive. but touching on it for one moment- i have never felt more lost and more confused about myself than i have in the past few days. i think that the most confusing part is how everytime the cyclical feelings of complete emotional abandonment come back, they get more intense and i feel more secluded. i see myself leeching onto anything and everything that can make me feel better. addiction.

i think that sometimes i get so engulfed in my own feelings, i dont see how much i hurt other people.


i also love how they openly pray at the republican national convention. how inclusive to pray to only one idea of god. nice job republicans.