i think that at some points, i've gotten very lost and confused. and i wonder, looking back, how i possibly got to where i am now.
and contemplating whether or not where i am now is an amazing thing, or if i should have done something differently.
it's possible that at times, i had high expectations. or that i overthought things. it's possible that i badgered you enough that it had to end the way it did. and it's possible that i'm pathetic for even having thoughts about you. it's possible that maybe i'm just not cut out for any of this.
i've been told before that i need to find myself. and there are times when i feel like i have. and there are times that i don't think i could be more confused.

once again,
welcome to the rollercoaster